I knew it right from the start i couldn't be alone without anyone by my side. I'll start imagine things, i'll start recalling back on that morning my dad called up crying telling me liang's gone, then everythings just flow back.. His smile, his voice, his laughter, his joke, his scolding and even the feeling that he's just beside.. Maybe like everyone says i think too much, but those feeling couldnt be false.. He said "we shall play mj one day when wee's is free" always always i did ask him for mj with my friends, but i'm always the one putting him aeroplane.. He said we shall celebrate xmas over at his place, he provide drinks while i provide turkey and the rest jus bring whatever things.. Xmas is not here yet while u? There won't be anymore 5 good cousins, there'll only left with 4 person on the cousins photo.. Some says "time wil heal" yes, it heal. But it only heal the part that we accept the fact but not those heartache and memories, i dunno... I feel scared, i feel pain,i feel that every single things is wrong.. Whenever i passby any building i'll jus look at a certain storey and imagine he jump, i dunno hw he could suffer those pain, i dunno hw he've the courage to jump but we believe everythings that happen is not his will..